“Mrs. Roberts? I’m Dr. Muller.”
Finally! Maybe I can find out what’s going on.
“Yes, I’m Lisa Roberts. How is he?”
My sweet Lisa. Always at my side. My soul mate.
“I’m afraid that the prognosis isn’t good. He suffered severe head trauma and bleeding, and there is permanent, irreversible damage.”
“Is there anything we can do?”
Don’t cry, Lisa. I’m here. I can’t hold you right now, but I will. Just hold on a little longer.
“I’m sorry, Mrs. Roberts, but it would be unfair of me to offer you a false hope. We’ve done all of the tests, and there is no sign of any higher brain functions."
“Higher functions?”
Good question, Lisa! I’m still here. Lower the medicine and I’ll be fine.
“His body is still functioning, but his mind – his soul, if you will – is no longer there.
Wrong! That’s the problem with doctors; they think they know everything.
“Are you telling me he’s brain dead?”
Don’t cry, Lisa! It’s not true! I promised to be with you always, and I will. We’ve overcome challenges before. We’ll win this time, too.
“His brain functions are minimal.”
“What are you saying?”
Yeah, what are you saying? Let me tell you, I’m not feeling too minimal right now. Annoyed, maybe, but not “minimal.”
“Mrs. Roberts, your husband is gone. All that you see here is an empty shell.”
Empty shell? Does an empty shell feel anger? Or rage?
“What are the next steps?”
That’s my Lisa! Always thinking, always looking ahead. That’s one of the things I love about you, honey.
“Well, you have two options. The first option is to leave him on the ventilator. His heart is strong, his organs are functioning normally. He’s not in any pain…”
Ha! Wrong again! I have a headache the size of Texas, and you’re not helping any.
“…he’s not suffering. Over the course of the next few days, his organs will slowly shut down, and he’ll die. A week, ten days at the most.”
Gee, a real optimist, aren’t you? Haven’t you ever heard of the resiliency of the human spirit?
“What’s the other option?”
“I’m sure you’re familiar with the organ donor program.”
Hey, hold up here! I’m still using these organs, if you don’t mind.
“Bob always said he wanted to be a donor. ‘Parts is parts,’ he’d say.
“Then I think that you ought to give this some consideration. If you take him off the ventilator, his organs will be healthy enough to donate to people on the transplant lists.”
Lisa! Lisa! Don’t listen to him. Give me a chance!
“And if we wait?”
“At that point, they wouldn’t be suitable for donation.”
Why are you silent? You’re not seriously thinking about this, are you? Look at me. Look at me! Can’t you see me in here? Can’t you tell that I’m not gone?
“Mrs. Roberts?”
“Can I think about it overnight?”
“I wish we had that luxury. Unfortunately, there is a very limited window for organ donation.”
You b*****d! As if she’s not suffering enough, you need to do the hard sell. Who’s on that list – your mother? Or do you get a kick-back on every organ you procure?
“Five minutes – can I have five minutes alone with Bob?”
I have her full attention – this is my chance. I need to move, or blink, or…something. They need to know that I’m still here. Maybe I can move my hand, or a finger. Come on Bobby boy, you can do it. You have to do it. Concentrate…concentrate…
“Bob, I know you can’t hear me. I know that you’re already gone. But this is hard, so hard. Do I hold on to you? Keep you with me for just a few more days? I know it’s selfish, but I don’t want to let go. I can’t imagine life without you. As long as you’re here, I can pretend. I can pretend that you’ll recover, that a miracle will happen and you’ll come back to me.”
It’s not selfish, honey. I’m a fighter, and I’ll fight anything to stay here with you.
“But you’re not coming back. If I let you go now, a miracle will happen for dozens of others. You’ll be gone, but your love and spirit will live on.”
This can’t be happening. Lisa, don’t do this. I’m not ready to go. What do I have? Hours? Minutes? How small is that “window” the doctor mentioned? Look at me, Lisa. Look at me. Don’t let me go.
I feel your hair on my cheek, your lips on my forehead. It can’t end like this. I want to hold you close, wipe the tears from your eyes…
“Good-bye, Bob.”