He slowly opened the hollow pine back door. Never had any door been so heavy. He walked past the endless empty rows of lined pews, which seemed to be the only order in all of the chaos. Next were the two steps – which felt like mountains – that led to the deep red curtain. Once the bewildered young man reached the curtain, he stood there for a moment knowing his father was just on the other side. He took a deep breath and struggled to find the slit in the curtain. Once he did, he pulled it aside – eyes closed – and stepped through.
He opened one eye at a time, slowly. He saw a little boy – his younger brother, Colin – standing by his father. The little boy's hazel eyes appeared hollower than the back door as he gazed through his fallen role model. The older brother looked at his dad's eerily beautiful eternal bed – pine, like the back door – with heavy eyes as if there were nothing else in the room.
It was only him, his little brother, and the body of his father. He was in awe, and couldn't decide if this was truly occurring. He wished to pinch himself to wake from the nightmare that consumed him.
The father looked just as he did when he would fall asleep on the couch watching football. Except, this time, there was no couch. This time, he was not snoring. This time, he would not wake up.
The younger brother hesitantly asked, "Is he still there?" The older brother, Junior stood there and pondered the question as he was not quite sure. He looked at his deceased father deeply – deeper than he ever had before, deeper than the soon to be grave, deeper than the red of the curtain – and saw nothing but an unfamiliar face.
"No," he slowly replied to his brother who didn't even understand the implications of what he had just been told.
"Then where is he, Junior?" the younger one asked as the two brothers looked at their dad. Junior thought for a moment, again, as he knew this was probably the most important question he would ever have to answer.
"You know the clouds in the sky?" he said.
"Yeah."
"Well, on top of those clouds there is the most beautiful place you could ever think of. There are gardens as far as the horizon blooming gigantic white flowers every single day. Everyone always has a smile on their face – no exceptions. It's a place where nobody gets mad, nobody gets hurt, and nobody ever has a reason to cry. And when you go there you can do anything you desire."
"Oh," Colin reluctantly responded, as he looked up and to the right.
"And that is where he will be forever.
And another thing," added the older brother. "I don't want you to call me Junior anymore. Call me Michael – my real name."
The younger brother appeared confused, but seemed to shrug off the comment.
"I remember, me and Dad were playing catch with the baseball, and he told me how good I was getting," interjected Colin.
Michael just stood there - his mind as empty as the rows of pews - as he could not retrieve a single memory to share with his little brother.
Again, there was a pause in which the two brothers were looking at each other as if they were communicating through only their eyes.
The younger one asked, "When can I see him again?"
He was immediately hugged by his upset brother, who said, "I'm sorry …we won't, but I'll be here for you for anything you'll ever need, just like he would've been."
Just as these words passed his quivering lips, a memory – a conversation between his father and him about a girl – suddenly materialized within the walls of his consciousness. And not long after, another emerged. And another.
While this was occurring, back in the other room – which felt like a different world entirely - the mourners entered the pews just as rain drops into a reservoir.
In the solemn, dark room, Colin timidly questioned, "What if people don't remember him?"
A tear rolled down his cheek, as Michael whispered proudly, "For as long as their hearts beat, they will remember."
The older one grabbed his brother's hand and they took one last look at their father. They walked back through the curtain to find the once empty rows filled with a congregation of watery-eyed men and women – tissues in hand. They both stood there for a moment shocked at the vastness of the crowd. Colin looked up at his new role model; and Michael back at him.
They proceeded to their awaiting seats – front row, center. They looked at each other - then at the curtain. It opened.