It was a perfect fall day. Summer’s luscious green had fled from the maples, replaced by the brilliant crimson and orange that signals the coming winter. My breath hung on the air like tiny wisps of smoke, gently swirling before lazily drifting away. Yet despite this beauty, something wasn't quite right.
I glanced around, but it seemed like any other morning. I waved at Mrs. Jones as she took her trash to the curb, then I quickly stepped out of the way as the Murphy kids raced to school on their bikes. Shrugging off the feeling, I started walking to work.
At the deli on the corner, I made my morning coffee stop.
“Good morning, Mrs. Alberts,” came a cheerful greeting.
“Good morning, Jamie,” I replied. “I’ll have my usual.”
Within minutes, a hot cup of coffee and a freshly toasted bagel were ready for me. As Jamie handed me my change, I automatically started to drop the pennies in the “give-a-penny, take-a-penny” cup next to the register. But instead of hearing the dull clank of copper on copper, they skittered around the countertop. Laughing, I scrambled to corral the errant change.
“Where’d the penny cup go?” I asked with a smile.
“The penny cup?” she asked.
“You know, for the spare change, in case somebody else is a penny short,” I replied.
Jamie gave me a quizzical look.
“Why would you leave your change for them? If they’re short, then that’s their problem.”
Puzzled, I thanked her for the coffee and left.
As I stepped out of the deli, I was again struck by a sense of “wrongness.” The sky was blue, the birds were singing, yet something was missing.
Suddenly, I found myself in front of an empty lot. I looked around, thinking I might have taken a wrong turn. Glancing behind me, I could still see the deli, and I recognized the gas station at the next corner. But if I wasn’t lost, then where was the church?
I was still in shock when I saw a man walking towards me. I approached him, hoping he’d know the answer to my question.
“Excuse me, but what happened to the church?” I asked him.
“Church?”
“St. John’s, the church that used to be here. I walked by yesterday and it was here. What happened?”
He looked at me so strangely that I wondered if he even spoke English. He finally asked his own question.
“What’s a church?”
Now it was my turn to hesitate. How can you not know what a church is? I tried to explain it to him.
“It’s a place where people worship, and where the needy in the community can come for help. You know – a church.”
“Never heard of one,” he replied. “How does it make money?”
“People give money to the church, and they use it to help others."
“Give money? Lady, I don’t know what’s in your coffee, but people don’t just give away money. You must be crazy.” With that pronouncement, he left.
Now I was really confused. First the penny cup, now a church. How can things disappear?
I slowly started to walk down the sidewalk, thinking about the strange morning. Was my mind playing tricks on me? I was deep in thought as I approached Rosie.
Rosie is one of those people who fall between the cracks. Mentally ill but harmless, she’s not stable enough to work, but not sick enough to be hospitalized. So she frequents the soup kitchen and shelter at St. John’s, and somehow manages to survive. Out of habit, I reached into my pocket for some spare change.
But as I approached her, I noticed something different. She seemed thinner, almost gaunt. Bending down, I gently shook her. She looked at me with unfocused eyes. A horrible thought struck me.
“Rosie, when was the last time you ate?” Without St. John’s, she didn’t have a way to survive.
Her lips were dry and cracked. I saw their blue tinge, and for the first time noticed the chill in the air. I took off my jacket and wrapped her in it.
We were on a busy corner, yet everybody ignored us. I tried to get someone to call for help, but they looked the other way. I wrapped my arms around her shaking body, trying to warm her up.
Rosie’s eyes closed, then her shaking stopped.
At that moment, I knew what was wrong.
I had woken up in a world without charity.