Author's Note: i can not tell you how many times i have crashed off the gw or tappan zee bridge or the cliffs near the bridge. i'm plummeting to my death, trying to scream but nothing coming out, my face and hands pressed up against the windshield. i told myself that the next time i had this dream i would say to myself "wake up it's only a dream" but instead i would be thinking "this is why i was having those dreams and now i'm going to die!"